First Prize

My partner, Alicia, and I attended the weekend tantra workshop in November, 2005 in Portland with Leah and Charles. I have been an energy healer for 30 years so I was well aware of the energy principles relating to sexual healing which were shared in the workshop. On Sunday evening, late, after the workshop ended Alicia and I returned home... we were too tired on Sunday to do the Sacred G Spot ceremony and likewise on Sunday... we went to bed with the agreement to do the ceremony the following day...however, we were both highly 'charged' from the closing cirles and healing rituals...as Alicia and I lay together she put her hand on my heart and I felt some of the most powerful and profound pulsations I have ever felt... tears began to pour and I felt orgasmic waves of energy radiating down and thru my body...

I felt different parts of my body vibrate and with each vibration there was a release of energy.... my mind journied back thru my own life, the disappointments in sexual relations, then to the lives of my grandfathers going back generations... how generation after generation we lost the joy of sexuality being overcome by the daily life struggles for survival... then waves of emotions around worthiness... and as I breathed in t o the pain in my heart I saw myself as a young man at the alter (catholic) pounding my chest with the prayer 'lord I am not worthy'...then thru my grandfathers again not feeling worthy to experience joy... the experience seemed timeless I have no idea how long it lasted in real (?) time whatever that is... in later life I began to follow the Goddess religion and found this gentler and kinder than the beliefs I had been raised and yet deep within I held a dark secret.. my feeling of 'unworthniness' to experience the creator... god/goddess on the most physical love thru my sexuality...it seems like Alicia held my heart forever... she held it until I finally let go of the fear and the pain and thru her(and all the beautiful sisters in the workshop) I felt the great mother... her love, her compassion, her healing for me...

I realize that in my chosen profession as a polarity practitioner (energy healer) while I worked with the chakras, professional boundaries and eithics had trained me to sublinate or deny my sixth chakra needs and attention... I am still absorbing that experience... this has profoundly shifted my life.... thank you thank you for the healing and the workshop.

By Whitewolf Switzer

First Prize

Poems in the Realm of Tantra by Stephen Bosbach, 2005

I haven't seen you since the morning,
And several times today
My thoughts rang back to last night,
A lover's hit.....I smile at
the memory of your touch,
Surrounding, sounding,
Rolling waves upon my beach.One love, mellowed with time,
but armored in quick glances,
Until the Goddess appeared.....
A gentle Joan of Arc
plowing under the fortresses of sex
with new sewn fields of
mutual trust and respect.There is such a quiet
After the storm,
More than an absence of
The noise and tumult,
A deep, abiding peace......
Born of Love released.The Ecstasy,
Shattering my rigid shell,
prying open the rusty doors
of my heart.
I am bleeding light,
Mingling with the warm caress of your eyes.I was driving down the road
When the feeling returned.......
That passing wave of smiles
Sweeping from head to toe,
Arms stiffened straight as
Hands massaged the steering wheel,
It was you......passing by
Memory's open door,
An avalanche of joy!

Second Prize

Wonderful 2 - We had an hour’s drive home. It was Sunday night about 10:30 and we had just finished up a
25 hour weekend workshop. This was not one of your typical religious weekend workshops. No, we were after the sexual-spiritual journey. Sunday night as we headed south out of Portland Oregon, we reflected back over all that we had seen and experienced the last 2 and ½ day at a Conscious Loving Beginners workshop.

We decided together to wait on our men’s night homework. We would be more rested and raring to go. Next evening I wanted to start early, set the mood and welcome my lover home feeling free and energetic. I wanted to give him the experience of a lifetime. I prepared the room with the massage table; arranged candles, set the CD player with just the right music and turned the heater up to keep the room warm enough to be naked. I donned a sarong, greeted him tenderly at the door, and offered him dinner while he had a drink. We laughed throughout dinner knowing something fun and unknown was impending.As he moved to the other part of the house, he noticed the door to the massage room open and a different mood within. I believe he knew as soon as he saw the darkened room glowing with soft candle light! He knew he was in for all those awesome “flights of the imagination” desires that Charles had spoken about in the men’s session on Male Sacred spot. I ushered him into the room and invited him to lay down.

We spoke softly for a while as he got comfortable and then slowly, softly I began to kiss him all over……his eyes, lips, ears, neck, chest and continued on down to his thighs, he was a bit tight so I invited him to lay face down and I began with the 10 finger tapping technique. I could tell when he started relaxing - so I moved my motions outward to his lower back, thighs and tush. He has such a luscious bottom that it was so much fun to knead and rub his cheeks. I felt like the natural flow of a river as my hands meandered over, around and under his buttocks.
I allowed my hands to gently touch his sacs and wand. He jerked from the excitement – exclaiming “I hope you will touch me like that again soon, my butt has never felt so loved.” After exploring those sensations for quite awhile I had him turn over. I needed a more direct route to his pleasure wand. Warm breathe – throbbing wand –I’m barely thinking now – I’m in the flow all the way now and massaging oil to his lotus blossom.

He is “Ummming and Ahhhhing”, which eggs me on more. I spread his checks and he is really beginning to let go. Sensations cause laughter and then he passes out from laughing. “WOW WOW WOW” are his exact words.
How blessed I feel! He began to feel close to orgasm so I touched his head – right on his 3rd eye. What a sensation for both of us!Working my way back down to his lingam where I found that he likes the palming technique very much.

I used some stroking, licking, sucking and even tried squeezing his sacs softly. He had actually showed me earlier how it felt best to him so I knew exactly how to send him now. I’m now anxious to enter him as I’ve been rubbing lots of oil around his anus and he is moaning…..relaxed so much by this point that he took my finger in very easily. That was such a thrill and just as Leah and Charles said - soft, very much like the inside of my sacred spot. He was so receptive that I easily knew where to touch and how and when to move my finger.He is trembling now with moans of pleasure and I am in a blissful timeless place myself. He is shaking and impulsively backs onto my finger and I’m feeling how very stimulated he is and wanting more. I hold my finger steady and firmer. He was taking my finger like I was making love to him in a whole new way. He couldn’t bring himself to stop for quite awhile before he started laughing from overload.

A laugh I’d never heard before. The laughing went on for so long I realized I needed to bring him back. I laid my hand on his forehead again. This helped him come back but not to abruptly.He definitely had multiple orgasms this night. He didn’t squirt but he did orgasm into timelessness. But when he finally came around, he paid me the most amazing compliment as he exclaimed “That was Wonderful 2” or ”Wonderful squared” David had thought we didn’t need the weekend because things were already good in that part of our relationship. We have always had a synchronicity with one another when we make love. I love how this weekend took us beyond the wonderful lovemaking we already thought we had.

Thank you Charles and Leah! Love and Blessings,
Robin and David

Third Prize

Hi Charles and Caroline, I took your course in Santa Cruz in October 2005. I had originally read your book almost 15 years ago, and have been looking for a partner to explore Tantric love with ever since. It was such a dream come true to attend your course with my wonderful boyfriend Ed.The first thing I noticed after the course is that immediately my orgasms became much longer and deeper! The deep breathing and voicing really work! This alone is worth the price of admission! I am feeling much more comfortable to talk openly and freely about sex and explore with myself and my partner. I don't feel embarrased anymore. I feel so much more confident and any shame I had about sex has disappeared. I felt that the core of the course is really about giving and receiving. I feel that the main shift between me and my partner is that we are each able to fully give and to fully receive now, prior to that we felt we needed to be 'on' all the time.During the first Sacred Spot Healing during the course, I didn't feel much sensation in my sacred spot. As Caroline suggested, I have been gently saying hello to this spot on a regular basis. Sometimes I just touch my sacred spot for a moment in bed before I start my day. Sometimes I will reach in and say 'hello' when I go to the bathroom at work.

I enjoy pulsing my PC muscles to connect to my core energy and send it through my body. It's like recharging my battery with peace and love and joy!I also bought a 'crystal wand' at the workshop, and have played with it several times. I am noticing that my sacred spot is starting to wake up and have more sensation. I am starting to have amazing orgasms from my sacred spot much more easily. Sometimes when I am tired and feeling low energy, I use the 'crystal wand' and it's such a wonderful way to connect with my energy and get it moving through my body. My boyfriend and I use the spooning to align ourselves and our energy, even when we are frazzled.Before we went out to our New Year's Eve party this year, we sat down facing each other on the bed and chanted through the chakras: Lom, Vom, Rom, Yom, Hom, Ommmm! I felt energized and connected for the party and to ring in the new year.I am so grateful to have a loving boyfriend to explore with.

I am so so so grateful to be fortunate to have multiple orgasms, and waves of orgasms that last several minutes.
I am so grateful to have clitoral, vaginal, sacred spot and even kissing orgasms!
I am so grateful to be on this path of learning how to truly give and to truly receive and to let love and joy
and ecstasy flow through me every day. I am so grateful to keep learning and exploring and growing.Love,
Donna Weber